Monday, February 28, 2011

What to Say

I've always been pretty good with words, but I've found that most often when my skill forsakes me it's when it's needed the most.  When my talent counts, when it's really needed, I never know what to say. It's frustrating to feel that way. Almost useless. This is a post for when you don't know what to say to me, two little things that can mean everything.

Whatever your feeling is okay.
There are days when I'm angry, when I think there is injustice in the fact that people call my sweet Austin a "Downy or a Downs Kid" like he has no identity. There are times when seeing a new baby pushes on those tender places still in my heart, and I wish I could get back those first few weeks when I didn't know what I held in my arms. There are moments when I feel relieved that he's doing so well and then guilty because I feel relieved, days when I think I know exactly what I'm doing only to realize I don't know what the hell I'm doing at all and all that confidence slips away. Occasionally I let myself wallow in self pity about silly little things that really don't mean anything and yet they do. And sometimes. No most times, I am blissfully at peace.

I love you.
Because really that's all I need to hear.

Two small sentences.

Eight little words.

Things we all need to know.

Whatever your feeling is okay. I love you.


  1. I love you Julia May Harrison! More than anything.

  2. Your children are so beautiful! I love all of your sons rolls..gotta love a chubby little one!

  3. So wonderful. And I agree- those rolls are kissable!

  4. Whatever you are feeling IS okay and I love you!

  5. Love that you express everything. I love the pictures. I just want to squeeze those sweet chubby legs!!!

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  7. I love your blog and the way you write. As a mom of a special needs child myself, I understand your frustration. I have felt that way many times, people just don't know what to say. I think what bothers me the most is those that think having Lizzy is a tragedy, it is not. It is a blessing. That is not to say it is easy, it is not. But raising children is not easy whatever their stregnths and weakneses are.

    But it took me a while to figure a lot of that out. I have found that whenever you go through a challange you really find out which people "work" for you and which do not. That is part of the blessing, seeing what counts and what does not matter at all.

    I love your post. Thank you so much!

  8. Thanks for this post. I feel like I am fighting with myself daily going back and forth with these different emotions. I still have a few months before I get to meet Isabelle and sometimes it seems hard to get through the day. It is so nice to hear sometimes that it is ok to have these feelings. I am normal!